Some of the people I meet are really quite amazing

Funny, caring, kind, outgoing, smart, friendly and just being great people in general

So much for me to learn from

I really need to start giving more compliments to others and to cut down on the doubting and taunting and teasing

So
You're wonderful
Yes you

Last month of the year now

Still a bit early for a reflection but I've got some stuff to say

I've become smarter and better at physics

but not good enough to clinch nice medals and compete with the best

I've become better-looking and fitter

but not good enough to look proportionate and spike well in volleyball

I've become more confident and less awkward around girls

but not good enough to get more closer female friends (gf???) and be chill with them after a while of not seeing them (those awkward interactions feel so sad)

I've become more sociable and outgoing

but not good enough to hang out often with many friends so that I'm not lonely so often and why is it that whenever I return from the library my teeth seem to have been always clenched tightly such that my mouth feels sore

I've become older and better

but not good enough in any respect and that makes me sad

I've become

so inadequate

I game quite often and sometimes it is to forget some sadness