2023

Probably the most eventful year of my life.

Did so many things I was proud of, a few big things I'm really really not. I'm glad that I owned up to them, but I so so regret having done them in the first place. Things that did the opposite of who I want to be, of what I want to do. And I shed tears again for this, my last few in 2023.

2024 will hopefully be better. I will try my best, like I have always been, and I will prove through my actions that I want to be, that I try to be, that I am, the best person I can be.

I have always tried to be a good person, and I will be a better one next year. It will be tough and it will be tiring, but I will do it.

A million apologies, a billion, to those I have hurt. I am so so sorry, and I will be better. I hope you one day understand all of this, and forgive me.

Life

Uni life has been so crazy

So so so good, then so so so bad, so damn eventful

I've had the best moments of my life, so exciting and joyous and monumental, shared with the ones closest to me, and felt so loved

And I have loved like I have never loved before

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And I have lost like I never hope to do again

I've done things that I hate myself for having done, broken promises which I swore to never break, and hurt people whom I never want to hurt

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But I have taken away really important lessons, but what good is learning skiing if you never ski again? But I guess I will eventually ski again, and I know I will remember these lessons for a long long time.

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And I really wish I get a chance to apologise to her properly, when she eventually wants to listen to me again. I'm so sorry, and I thank you for everything you've done, and I hope you find someone who treats you the way you want to be treated right, even though I had really hoped that you would understand me and come back to me in spite of me having broken your trust. I would have so loved to have tried again, but oh well.

Maybe in another lifetime. Thank you and goodbye, and hope we can talk again in some time, as friends, because I really hope to see you happy, and make you happy, again.

I love you.