It ended

About 3 months and 6 days (pretty messed up with circuit breaker and all which may have contributed to this mess)

Cried again (a bit less heavily, maybe a bit more in the future)vfor the first time in about a year (since 22nd May I think)

Back to my old life

I know you will probably never read this but thank you so much, I don't think I will ever forget what we've done (though it may not have been much in such a short and quarantined time)

What an interesting life
This does not work well with the current circuit breaker loneliness and sadness.
Just realised I'm going to revert my wallpaper for good this time and broke into a fresh round of tears and cried harder.